The last time I did one of these posts it was probably at least a year ago if not more. Maybe some of you seeing my posts might wonder, who is this girl and what should we trust her opinion?
Well, let me tell you.
First, The Basics
I am from the central valley in California. In 2016 I moved to Idaho to go to college and I met my husband in the spring of 2017. When we met I was working full time for my university and 7 months later we got engaged. 5 months after that, we got married. We moved to our current town for my husband’s job and shortly after getting married I started working for the same company. A year and some change later I quit that job for MANY reasons but one was to focus on my health. Now, here I am trying to figure out what to do with my life. Right now, my passion is skincare, make up, yoga, and all things media.
What do I know about skincare?
By no means am I a dermatologist but, I have struggled with severe acne and scarring for the past 4 years. In the spring of 2017 is when I started to get bad acne. I vividly remember when the first set of bumps popped up on my cheek. I saw them forming one morning while getting ready for work one Saturday and I thought I really hope I don’t end up like one of those people with so much red acne all over my face. A judgmental thought, yes, but, I was already so insecure about so many other things, I did not know how to handle it. Over the course of the spring and summer my skin got worse and worse and worse. I was getting a ton of acne and my face hurt all the time.
Even under lots of concealer and foundation my skin still looked like this.
Around the end of 2017 and the beginning of 2018 I decided I needed to do something about it. I had quit my second job and was making better money at my first job so I saw a dermatologist. They gave me a few options for how to treat my acne and the one I chose included 3 prescriptions. 1 pill and 2 topical gels. The first week I really didn’t think this was doing anything for my skin. My face started to burn from being so dry during the second week. The skin around my eyes and mouth were peeling but the doctor told me this should only last 1-3 weeks. Every night after I washed my face and put on the topical gels I would cry for 30 minutes because the burning hurt so badly. Three weeks later, my skin was back to normal and my scarring was clearing up. I was SHOCKED to say the least. Finally, I felt like I could go outside without makeup on.
I stayed on those prescriptions for about a year and my skin stayed clear during that time and for several months after. Then the acne started to come back and the scarring was starting back up. The previous prescriptions had taken a huge toll on my skin and mental health, so I didn’t just want to jump back into them.
And what do I know about mental health?
I have written several posts about my mental health and I wouldn’t even consider myself an expert at that. Everyone struggles with something different and all I can do is share my story and hope that it helps at least one person out there.
I struggle with anxiety and more specifically Emetophobia. Emetophobia is the severe fear of vomit and of vomiting. At this point, most people usually tell me that “No one likes throwing up, but its just a part of life.” I know. I am aware of it, but just like any other phobias it seems trivial to other people and unless you struggle with it, it really probably doesn’t make sense. Emetophobia consumes every part of my life and I am still learning to cope with it but through support groups and finding people like me, I feel like I am getting there.
So why do I blog?
Basically, I like writing. In highschool you would have never found me doing any extra writing outside of English Class. However, in college I was working a job that partly included writing a blog. I had a great time and I genuinely enjoyed coming up with ideas and writing out posts with my one liners I thought were HILARIOUS.
Also, blogging reaches a pretty large audience and when combined with making videos I feel like I can share and connect with people all from the comfort of my office. I myself, LOVE reading blogs and watching YouTube videos so why not become a part of the culture itself? I work in media and it is what I have my degree in so this is really where my passion is in life.
So that is where I am at. I am still trying to navigate acne, scarring, and all around skincare. I want prescriptions to be the last solution for me especially since the results really didn’t last. The last Few years have been all about trying to find the perfect skincare routine. One that would fit my personal values as well as cure my acne and scarring. No problem, right? Acne is nothing to be ashamed of because it happens to everyone and some people really can’t stop it. However, I just would like to not have to worry or think about it anymore.